Sunday, March 30, 2008

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew
I had won.So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry,
I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Barry Rockstar

Barry... laki yang kamek sik sangka akan jadi teman hidup kamek. Kamek kenal Barry tok hanya dari internet life... tat why kamek sik mok buang internet life because dari internet tok kamek kenal my soulmate... he just he... dia adalah dia... nya.. suka mun orang gelar nya Barry Rockstar Wannabe aja lah ... hehe ... I love him so much... masuk tok dah 10 bulan bersama... banyak dah perit hidup di harungi bersama. From the 1st time I met him, aku sik juak perasan, nya tok handsome... yang kamek tahu dapat sik kamek berjumpa dengan nya... sebab kamek tok bukan jenis yang mok jumpa orang yang baru kamek kenal.... kamek try to accept it... kamek pergi jumpa and then akhir nya... kamek dapat accept nya... he is funny, talkative and caring. Ist time we met and talk, kamek dah rasa macam lama dah kenal. But as I know, sida cousin aku memang dah kenal nya dolok since he teenager. He used to play guitar and lepak with my uncle (my mom's cousin). Nya kenal semua sida aunty kamek and uncle kamek, cousin kamek pun nya kenal, even nya pun family pun kenal all my family. But I dont know that. Biasa lah aku tok workholic....kesimpulan nya... he my friend, my best friend, my father, my mother, my husband and my soulmate. I love him so much. I'm proud he is my husband... Thank you God. Bless Us. There were times when I just want to look at your face from the stars in the night. There were times when I just want to feel your embrace in the cold night. I just can?t believe that you are mine now. You were just a dream that I once knew, never thought I would be right for you. I just can?t compare you with anything in this world. You?re all I need to be with... forevermore. I love you so much. More than words can say. I need you. I cant live without you. Not even for a day. The love I feel is hard to explain. The words my heart scream, but go without a name. The tears I cry, go unseen. The ways I try are countless. I have tried to smile. To ignore the pain - to go on my way. But I love you too much. Much more than I could ever say. If I lived a thousand years - words would still go unsaid. So I write my words down, and hide them away.I want to be the only one for you the one you tell your secrets to. I want to be the face you look for in a crowd the quiet voice when everything seems so loud. I want to be the one you put your arms around The one who can speak to you without making a sound. I want to be the shoulder you can cry on The one to say I will never be gone. I want to make you happy make you see. I want to feel your dreams and fears and wipe away your tears. I want to be the one to fill that void - that empty space inside your heart. That place that's waitng for me That's where I want to be. With you - that's where I want to be Yours - only - that's who I want to be...I remember the first day I met you,I didnt know what to do or to say.I never thought that (us) would come to be. Now I dream of you and me spending eternity. I remember our first kiss, that summer's day, And our first date, way back in May. I didn?t know it would all last this long. Now I only hope our love goes on. I remember when we had our first fight, And how you said you were sorry latter that night. I always wondered when it would end, But then I realized we would always be friends. Today or tomorrow, together we will be. Spending our lives together, just you and me. You and me will always be together, Always, always, always and forever.I am so lucky to have found you. Once in a lifetime, you find someone who touches not only your heart, but also your soul. Once in a lifetime, you discover someone who stands beside you, not over you, you find someone who loves you for who you are not what you could be. Once in a lifetime, if you are lucky you find someone...as I found you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MY SOULMATE MADE IN HEAVEN.....

My Family

Kamek lahir dalam on 25th November 1983, di lahirkan di General Hospital lama... (ko orang madah spital seberai)... still remember ... mun mok pergi hospital ya... mesti guna feri... kenek tok .. just tinggal kenangan... masa ya kecik lagi... ingat-ingat lupa lah ni... hehe... kamek tinggal kat Piasau Camp... Paradise Of "Omputih" ... there's is the best place i live... i like Piasau Camp, peace and fun... masa kecik banyak lah geng ngan anak mat salleh... ingat dulu masa kamek in primary 3, kamek tinggal di rumah Tulip 54 kat Piasau Camp... kamek berkawan ngan anak mat salleh kacukan cina dari China... 2 orang... Samantha Mei Mei and Robert Hian... it still fresh in my mind, i wonders where they now? The last I know is... they at Somalia.... Dulu mak kamek kerja as amah di Piasau Camp... I born in Piasau Camp ... and I work at Piasau Camp... but not working as an amah :P but as a hotline call operator for Piasau Camp problem ... people at Piasau Camp will know if you said this magic number 3434.... kenek tok dah tinggal kenangan... banyak kenangan zaman kanak-kanak kamek di habiskan di Piasau Camp...I miss Piasau Camp... no other like this place... tempat tinggal di sia pun sik payah pakai pagar ... open aja... ya lah kamek madah Piasau Camp tok best ... ada security guard jaga gik... atau lebih di kenali AP. Majoriti anak-anak amah kat Piasau Camp semua nya sekolah kat SRK Lutong (dolok SRK lah)... ada lah sekok dua kamek kenal.. macam Ryna, Irene, ya aja kamek ingat kowh... lama dah ... tok kamek dah 25 tahun, this coming November lah (2008)... masa umur kamek 8 bulan (mak cita lah), mat salleh nama John pernah baby sitter kamek .. and ajar kamek bejalan....dah lah badan kamek montel masa ya ... (nangga dalam gambar)...i really miss my childhood time... it's very memorable... I miss Piasau Camp, I miss my childhood and I miss my year of 1983.... I wanna met John, Robert Hian and his sister Samantha Mei Mei.....